Fuck 'reality'.

No internet connection - (posted late)

So I just woke up from a nap and I’m just driving down the highway apparently.
But I just had the most real dream I ever had, I still believe it happened. I experienced the smells, the tastes, the movement, the emotions, the physical contact, and of course the sounds and sights. I felt more involved, more a part of my ‘dream’ than I ever do when I’m ‘awake’. On top of the whole dream itself, inside my head in the dream I had separate thoughts. I could think for myself, and clearly (which I can’t even seem to do ‘awake’) All my dreams feel incredibly real, and all my hallucinations, my dissociation- The whole lot of it feels so much more real to me than plain life. So maybe, for me, or for everyone, none of us are actually living right now while we’re ‘awake’. Maybe being awake is just a glitch, until the system gets reset and we live in our dreams again. I always feel lost and confused when I’m awake- maybe this feeling is suitable, maybe everyone should feel this way. Everyone just holds on to this thing we call life on earth because they feel safe, but they’re all just stupid, really. Try dreaming.

Immediate conversation with my sister after I awoke..
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Me: *looks at her* I just met Marilyn Manson.
Her: IN YOUR DREAMS! :P
Me: Does it matter?
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It doesn’t to me, I experienced it either way.
It was the best dream I ever recall having, the best time of my life, just happened sitting in this car. The dream was days long, but I woke up at basically the same time of day in this world. I want to go back to living, I want to fall asleep forever.

Maybe I’ve just gone crazy

Pretty As A Swastika – Marilyn Manson