Schizo on Schizophrenia

As mentioned, I've been doing a lot of research.
It obviously isn't helping me sleep, being on the computer so late. But it keeps me somewhat focused and calm as opposed to laying alone in the dark with nothing but myself, that can get ugly. I think in the last 5 days I've gotten about 5 hours sleep, with loads of nightmares which tend to wake me up. I'm fucking exhausted and my face is starting to look really.. sick.

Anyways I found some causes of schizophrenia, I'll list the ones I found interesting which relate to me. I'm starting to use this blog more of a personal journal to keep track of everything, even though it's not working I'm totally lost.. not the point, if your not me, and you don't like this, it's simple just fuck off.

People diagnosed with it, are more likely to be born in Winter or Spring.
Odd I know, and.. fuccccck.

Living in an urban environment can be a risk.
Suubburrbiiaa man, it's irritating.

Social disadvantage, migration related to social adversity, racial discrimination, family dysfunction..

Of course half of the people diagnosed abuse drugs &/or alcohol but this has not been proven to be a factor or a cause. Though marijuana is likely to be.
Out of all the drugs? Really, I don't even qualify that as a drug... (says the pothead)

Comprehensible reactions to impossible demands that society and particularly family life places on some sensitive individuals..

Anyways, moving on...
I've read into this a lot, including all the associated illnesses, just about everything.
I've been told, by the internet of course, that without treatment or medication I will continue to isolate myself and my relationships will eventually diminish, etc.. I can see this happening.
But I refuse to believe I'm devellopping schizophrenia, yet.
But I see no other explanation for what's going on. I just don't.

Shattered - Pantera