Mostly Just Schizo Symptoms

Alright, life sucks blah blah bullshit bullshit,
no one cares, I'm not going to tell any dumb stories about meaningless shit that's been happening no matter how much impact it made in my dumb meaningless life,
because, evidently- it won't matter.

So, I decided to put together a n easy list of most of the symptoms to schizophrenia
here it is if you're curious or think you may have it, whoever the fuck you are:

Social withdrawal
Hostility or suspiciousness
Deterioration of personal hygiene
Flat, expressionless gaze
Inability to cry or express joy
Inappropriate laughter or crying
Depression
Oversleeping or insomnia
Odd or irrational statements
Forgetful; unable to concentrate
Extreme reaction to criticism
Strange use of words or way of speaking
Belief that others, often a vague “they,” are out to get him or her. These persecutory delusions often involve bizarre ideas and plots (e.g. “Martians are trying to poison me with radioactive particles delivered through my tap water”).
A neutral environmental event is believed to have a special and personal meaning. For example, a person with schizophrenia might believe a billboard or a person on TV is sending a message meant specifically for them.
Belief that one is a famous or important figure, such as Jesus Christ or Napolean. Alternately, delusions of grandeur may involve the belief that one has unusual powers that no one else has (e.g. the ability to fly).
Belief that one’s thoughts or actions are being controlled by outside, alien forces. Common delusions of control include thought broadcasting (“My private thoughts are being transmitted to others”), thought insertion (“Someone is planting thoughts in my head”), and thought withdrawal (“The CIA is robbing me of my thoughts.”).
Hallucinations
Tend to have trouble concentrating and maintaining a train of thought.
Rapidly shifting from topic to topic, with no connection between one thought and the next.
Made-up words or phrases that only have meaning to the patient.
Repetition of words and statements; saying the same thing over and over.
Meaningless use of rhyming words (“I said the bread and read the shed and fed Ned at the head.").
A decline in overall daily functioning
Unpredictable or inappropriate emotional responses
Behaviors that appear bizarre and have no purpose
Lack of inhibition and impulse control.
Lack of emotional expression, including a flat voice, lack of eye contact, and blank or restricted facial expressions.
Lack of interest or enthusiasm; no ability to pursue goal-driven activities.
Apparent unawareness of the environment, near total absence of motion and speech, aimless body movements and bizarre postures, lack of self-care.
Difficulties with speech, inability to carry a conversation, short and sometimes disconnected replies to questions, lessening of fluency.
Emotional indifference
Infantile behavior (baby talk, giggling)
Peculiar facial expressions and mannerisms
Impaired communication skills
Relationships suffer significantly because people with schizophrenia often withdraw and isolate themselves. Paranoia can also cause a person with schizophrenia to be suspicious of friends and family.
Schizophrenia causes significant disruptions to daily functioning, both because of social difficulties and because everyday tasks become hard, if not impossible to do. A person’s delusions, hallucinations, and disorganized thoughts typically prevent him or her from doing normal things like bathing, eating, or running errands.
Schizophrenics frequently develop problems with alcohol or drugs, which are often used in an attempt to self-medicate, or relieve symptoms. In addition, they may also be heavy smokers, a complicating situation as cigarette smoke can interfere with the effectiveness of medications prescribed for the disorder.
People with schizophrenia have a high risk of attempting suicide. Any suicidal talk, threats, or gestures should be taken very seriously. People with schizophrenia are especially likely to commit suicide during psychotic episodes, during periods of depression, and in the first six months after they’ve started treatment.
Difficult for a person to distinguish between what is real and unreal, to think clearly, and to behave in socially acceptable ways.

Anyways, whether I have it or not (I'd be really fucking shocked if I didn't I'd probably just kill myself, why, why not..) I feel everyone now, deals with life in such a generic fashion. Their emotions and everything it's just so pathetic, and unrelatable.
Fucck

Nothing Else Matters - Metallica